A Loud Silence

The first day of sociology instead of Sal being in front of the class he sat in the back and didn't say word. For me it was a weird experience but not because no one was talking, it was because everyone in the class was doing the same thing. Everyone in the class basically just looked around and didn't know what to do. It was almost as if the other kids were talking all at once but nothing was being said. If you could hear what they were all thinking it would have been extremely loud and would drown out the silence. Usually when you start a class the teacher stands in front and instructs the class on what to do. We have been almost manipulated to that type of "normal" idea of how the class should work. The only reason that the weird experienced happened when everyone was looking around not sure what to do was because for us that was outside of what we are used to doing. For me this same idea was incorporated a few years ago. I was on a bowling team and instead of my coaching giving us advice on how well we should play or what we should do, he just sat there and said "take it all in, and have fun with it." At first we were all confused because it was not what we were used to hearing from our coach especially when a big match was about to begin. That same idea is what Sal did in class, but if you think about it, what he did was only weird to all of us because we really haven't experienced it before.

Who am I?

Who am I? That's a very good question. I have yet to figure out an answer for that. I have many characteristics, but does that really define who I am or just how I act. Some people say actions define who you are but who is really sure? I feel that I am a loyal friend, overall a good person, and love sports. Well instead of just stating what most people would say about themselves I could go a bit deeper. I'm usually filled with tons of self doubt, always thinking, always processing, and in many ways am far beyond many other people  in the idea that i can use common sense and regular thinking to succeed in any situation. I would like to say that I am able to "read" people, and by that I mean I am able to figure out what people are thinking or how they really feel about something. Its very frustrating to be one of few who understand those difficult ideas, or maybe that's just an outlook of it and I'm wrong, but who really knows.

I would have to say the biggest influences on my life are my parents because I've been around them for 18 years, so it be very tough not to take things they have taught me. Also another big influence on me was one of my friends who is two years older than I am, and he was the type of person to lead others and if he wanted to do something he did it. He was able to make decisions and then go through with them which is something that he taught me.

Goals and purposes are like most people, go to college, get a good job, family...etc. But there is something more that I want.  Maybe it's the way I think about life and what it's really about but I want more then just the regular life, to achieve that I don't know how, but it is a goal.